sense that? Did that mark make me somehow subtly different than
I had been? Did it somehow, set me apart from other women on this world? Could I
no longer drive men away? And if I could no longer drive them away, what did
(pg. 19) that mean? What had that small mark done to me? I felt suddenly
helpless, and somehow, suddenly, for the first time in my life, vulnerably and
radically female. I stumbled on.
I entered the apartment garage.
I found the keys in my handbag and gave them hurriedly, smiling, to the
attendant.
“Is anything wrong, Miss Brinton?” he asked.
“No, no,” I said.
Even he seemed to look at me.
“Please hurry!” I begged him.
He quickly touched his cap and turned away.
I waited, it seemed for years. I counted the beatings of my heart.
Then the car, small, purring, in perfect tune, a customized Maserati, whipped to
the curb, and the attendant stepped out.
I thrust a bill in his hand.
“Thank you,” he said.
He seemed concerned, deferential. He touched his cap. He held open the door.
I blushed, and thrust past him, throwing my suitcase and handbag into the car.
I climbed behind the wheel, and he closed the door.
He leaned over me. “Are you well, Miss Brinton?” he asked.
He seemed too close to me.
“Yes! Yes!” I said and threw the car into gear and burned forward, only to stop
with a shriek of rubber, skidding some ten feet.
With the electric switch he raised the door for me, and I drove out into the
swift traffic, out into the hot August night.
Even though the night was hot the air rushing past me, pulling at my hair,
refreshed me.
I had done well.
I had escaped!
I drove past a policeman and was almost going to stop, that he might help me,
protect me.
But how did I know? Others had worn the uniforms of the police? And he might
think I was insane, mad. And I (pg. 20) might be detained in the city. Where
they were. They might be waiting for me. I did not know who they were. I was not
even clear what they wanted. They could be anywhere. Now I must escape, escape,
escape!
But the air invigorated me. I had escaped! I darted about in traffic, swiftly,
free. Other cars would sometimes slam on their brakes. They would honk their
horns. I threw back my head and laughed.
I had soon left the city, crossing the George Washington Bridge, and taking the
swift parkways north. In a few minutes I was in Connecticut.
I slipped my wrist watch on my hand, as I drove. When I did so it was one
forty-six a.m.
I sang to myself.
Once again I was Elinor Brinton.
It occurred to me that I should not follow the parkways, but seek less traveled
roads. I left the parkway at 2:07 a.m. Another car followed me. I thought little
of it, but, after some four turns, the car still followed.
Suddenly I became frightened and increased speed. So, too, did the other car.
Then, as I cried out in anguish, I was no longer Elinor Brinton, the one always
in control of herself, the rich one, the sophisticated one, she with such
exquisite taste and intelligence. I was only a terrified girl, fleeing from what
she knew not, a bewildered, confused girl, a terrified girl, one with a mark on
her left thigh, a circle of steel locked snugly on her throat.
No, I cried to myself, no. I would be Elinor Brinton! I am she!
Suddenly I began to drive coolly, swiftly, efficiently, brilliantly. If they
wanted a chase, they should have it. They would not find Elinor Brinton easy
game! Whoever they might be, she was more than a match for them. She was Elinor
Brinton, rich, brilliant Elinor Brinton!
For more than forty-five minutes I raced ahead of my pursuer, sometimes
increasing my lead, sometimes losing it. Once, grinding and spurring about
graveled side roads, they (pg. 21) were within forty yards of me, but I
increased the lead, yard by yard.
I thrilled to their pursuit, and would elude them!
Finally, when I was more than two hundred yards ahead of them, on a cruelly
winding road, I switched