probably werenât going to give her the details. âDo you know where she lives?â she asked.
âSomewhere near Washington, D.C.,â her mother said. âAlthough I think she moved a couple of years ago, and I donât have that address.â
This was so totally weird, and upsetting. âBut, you know how to get in touch,â Emily said.
Her mother nodded uneasily. âYes.â
Emily waited for her to give more details, and then realized that it wasnât going to happen.
âI donât think very many people in her life know about what happened,â her father said, âand itâs always been my sense that she wants to keep it that way.â
Emily nodded stiffly. âBecause sheâs ashamed.â
âNot ashamed of you ,â her mother said quickly. âBut, I know she must have a lot of regrets about not being able to keep you in her life, and I think she just decided to keep all of it in the past.â
Maybe another clue was buried in there, too. âAre you saying that sheâs married now?â Emily asked.
Her mother nodded reluctantly.
Being married wasnât that big a deal, so there must be more to it, based upon her motherâs uncomfortable expression. âDoes she have children?â Emily asked.
Her mother sighed.
Oh, wow. That just couldnât be possible. Emily almost gasped. âYou mean, children she kept ?â
âYes,â her mother said. âShe has twins. I think they would be about a year old now, although Iâm not completely sure.â
So, she did have childrenâand children she wanted . Children she was proud of, and loved, and didnât keep hidden. âYou mean, children she liked better than me,â Emily said.
âNo, itâs not that simple, Emily,â her father said. âSheâs in a very different stage of her life now. Sheâs in a situation where sheâs able to take care of them, which she wasnât, when she was a student.â
All of this was really more than she felt as though she could take in, and she was suddenly feeling unbelievably tired, but Emily couldnât bring herself to stop asking questions, either. âSo, she has like, this nice little family now,â Emily said, âand Iâm this big bad secret?â
Her mother sighed. âPeople do the best they can, Emily.â
Maybe, but her birth motherâs âbestâ seemed to be pretty lousy. âDo you think she would ever want to meet me?â Emily asked.
âIâm sure that, somewhere deep inside, she would want to get a chance to see you,â her mother said, and then shook her head reluctantly. âBut, I honestly donât think thatâs something she wants to have happen.â
Oh. Emily tried not to look as crushed as she felt. âCan you ask her? The next time you get in touch with her?â
âOf course,â her mother said. âI canât promise that sheâll answer me, but I absolutely will ask. Thatâs a promise from me.â
Okay. And her motherâwho was her real motherâalways kept her promises.
âWhat matters the most, Emily, is that we get to have you as our child,â her father said. âThatâs whatâs important to your mother and me.â
Yeah. But, this was still all really upsetting. So, she might as well go for broke and ask the other important question. âWhat about my father?â Emily asked.
âShe never told us,â her mother answered. âIn fact, Iâm not sure she told anyone , even him.â
What kind of person could walk around keeping total secrets like that? Huge , important secrets? Did Emily even want to be related to someone who could do that? Not that she had a choice, of course. âWas he a student, too?â she asked.
Her father shrugged. âProbably, but we just donât know.â
âDo you even know if he was white or