of cigarette butts, presumably the same one as yesterday.
He sat sipping his tea and looking around the street.
Not far away, a family of three was eating brunch out on the street, sitting in a circle consisting of a plastic chair, a wooden stool, and a bamboo recliner, without a table in the center. The little boy was gazing up at a brightly colored kite dangling from a tree while being chided by his mother, who was insistently pushing the bowl up to his mouth. His father was enjoying a leisurely smoke, looking over his shoulder. All of them seemed contented and at peace with their surroundings.
Past the family, there was a middle-aged peddler squatting over a piece of white cloth, on which he exhibited an array of souvenirs and knickknacks. It was a strange place to have chosen. On a side street not frequented by tourists, there would hardly be any customers for his goods. Still, the peddler, dressed neatly in a short-sleeved white shirt, looked contented, like someone relaxing in front of his own house. But then Chen didnât know this area, so his interpretations of these people could well be wrong.
Anyway, they seemed to be ordinary people and ordinary scenes, and they calmed him.
Ready to settle down to work, he took out his notebook. He conceived some lines on the experience of being a nonâchief inspector here. For the past few months, he had been writing less and less, with the always-present excuse of his heavy workload.
Where else are we livingâ/ except in our assumed identities / in othersâ interpretations. / So you and I are zoomed, posing / against a walnut tree whispering / in the wind or a butterfly soaring / to the black eye of the sun. / Only with ourselves in the proper light, / and the proper position too, / can we be recognized as meaningful, / as a woodpecker has to prove / its existential values / in the echoes of a dead trunk  â¦
The lines moved in an unanticipated direction, growing inexplicably melancholy. He slowed down, yet he persisted. It was something worth doing, he told himself.
Uncle Wang came over to add hot water to his purple sand teapot.
It was probably close to the lunch hour, but Chen remained the only customer. It was none of his business, but he thought of the young woman again. Holding the pen, he was bothered by something she had saidâabout the irrelevance of poetry in todayâs society. Maybe reflecting on identity was a sort of âluxuryâ affordable only to a nothing-to-do tourist like himself. People were too busy getting whatever they could in todayâs society. Who would care about these metaphysical ideas? Besides, it hardly mattered whether being a cop was fulfilling or not. What else could he possibly do?
âTake your time,â Uncle Wang said, coming back to the table with a menu. âNo hurry.â
Having read through the one-page menu describing local freshwater fish, shrimp, lilies, and chestnuts, Chen decided on the white water fish. It was âlive, fresh from the lake, recommended,â according to a smaller line of print in parentheses. There was no way to add hormones to the lake, he figured.
âGood choice, the fish is medium-size today,â Uncle Wang said. âLive.â
It was quite an experience seeing the old man prepare the fish outside. It wasnât a large one, but it was still struggling, its silver scales shining and tail thrashing. The old man finished his job in two or three minutes and he threw the fish into a wok full of sizzling oil.
Soon after, the fish was served, still steaming hot, its skin golden and crisp, its appealing white meat tender. It was lying sensually atop a bed of red peppers.
âNot too many people today, Uncle Wang?â Chen asked, raising his chopsticks.
âWell, most of my customers come from the chemical company nearby. The food in their canteen is no good. But this morning something happened at the plant.â
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