crawly movements on my scalpâbut also a movement beside me as Mom reached for the remote and killed the TV.
Silence, except for the ragged sounds of my own sobbing. I hadnât even realized I was crying.
Mom put her arms around me, but I stiffened and pulled away.
Momâs arms fell into her lap like Iâd shot them down.
Silence.
Then, in her most controlled voice, âItâs not your fault, honey,â Mom said.
âI donât care.â I wanted to tell her it was all her fault, actually, but I didnât. âIâve got to help him.â
Isss she crazy? somebody hissed in my mind.
Mom said, âYou canât. Dusie, have some sense. You canât let them find out about us.â
Us.
Oh. Oh, my God.
If they took me away, theyâd take Mom, too.
No. No . None of this could possibly be happening.
But it was.
As if something were choking me, I could barely talk. I whispered, âBut, Mom, I have to do something ââ
âWhat can you possibly do that will make any difference for that boy?â
I shook my head. I had no idea.
âDusie, look at me,â Mom said.
When Mom told me to do something and she really meant it, I couldnât not do it. And this was one of those times when she meant it. So I faced her.
My mother. Like a classical sculpture. But not stone. All too alive, with deep, deep eyes. Something in those depths I could not read.
âDusie,â Mom told me, âYou have to accept the way things are for you now. Youâll come to see the good side. Being my daughter, you have a very long life to look forward to.â
Oh, terrific . âLook forward? â I almost screamed. âPutting people in the hospital? With snakes on my head?â
âHoney, youâll learn to cope with yourââ
I put my hands over my ears, loathing her. She wasnât a great sculptor. She wasnât anything sheâd let me believe she was. Her whole life was a humongous lie. She wasnât evenâ my mother wasnât even human . I hated her worse than ever, yet I needed her so bad I couldnât stand it.
I jumped up and stamped my foot so hard it hurt. âMom,â I begged, âwhat are we going to do?â
But I already knew she had no answers for me. Because she wasnât my perfect parent anymore.
Sure enough, she said, âI donât know.â
âMomââ
âSweetie, I donât know. I never had a daughter before.â A tear rolled from each eye. And Mom never cried. Never. But never say never. âAll those years,â she said, âand I never had a child.â
âPlease,â I whispered, because she had always been so strong, her pain hurt me even more than I was hurting already.
âI think we need to go to the Sisterhood,â she said.
THREE
At midnight we strode into Central Park. âDonât be afraid,â Mom told me.
âOf what?â
She didnât answer, just kept walking. She was wearing an emerald silk gown and a matching headdress that framed her Greek-goddess face. I just wore a thin scarf over my snakes, and they coiled close to my scalpâbecause of the cold, I guess. I mean, Iâm a city girl, and what I knew about snakes was mostly from horror movies, but it seemed to me Iâd heard something about snakes sunning themselves. They were reptiles, not like me, and they didnât do cold very well, apparently. They were finally silent.
âDonât be afraid of what?â I insisted, so bummed I didnât really care; I just wanted to argue. âGangs?â
But Mom actually chuckled. âTestosterone-prone youths are the last thing we have to worry about.â
âUnless theyâre carrying mirrors and swords,â said another voice. By the pale light of a thin moon, I saw a tall woman step out from between the trees to walk on the footpath by my side.
I said, âHi, Aunt Stheno.â
âSis,