surveys the girls. He weighs them, unwraps them, cuts and prices them. Itâs slaughter, quick, itâs slaughter.
âLook at her.â
âThat twatâs pointing at me.â
âCome on.â
âKnockers. Quick, fuck. Look at the knockers.â
âIâve got no chance.â
Somewhere among the lights, fun is located, invisible to the untrained eye. This is the age of excess, of silence, of stillness, of getting fucked up, of inebriated and uninhibited sex or hard morning wanks. This is the age of cash and waste.
At around midnight Colin seeks refuge in a toilet cubicle, leaving Boys 1 and 2 on the dance floor. He takes a piss and then lowers the toilet seat and the lid, wiping away the residue of cocaine and urine before sitting down and resting his elbows on his knees. The music is muffled but still seems deafening. âY2Kâ reads a note on the door, graffiti, âY2K: Kev fucked Sal.â What became of that moment? thinks Colin, noticing a pair of black brogues entering the adjacent cubicle. What became of Kev? He fucked Sal, of course, but then what? What did Sal and Kev do afterwards? Dance, maybe, yes, thinks Colin, Kev danced with a dirty dick, and Sal with an altered minge.
Colin falls forwards on to the wet floor, turning and lifting the lid, vomiting an odorous yellow into the toilet water.
âYou all right in there, mate?â
Am I all right in here? Colin wipes a hand across his mouth. Itâs decay, he thinks, pinching his Adamâs applebetween his fingers and thumb. Itâs some fucked-up decay. He looks down; the toilet lets out a deep, gurgling belly laugh.
âAll right, son, out you come.â
Colin looks up to see a very white face staring down at him over the divide. A very large fat face, the telling shine of black bomber jacket beyond its neck. A bouncer. Bollocks. A bouncer balancing on next doorâs toilet. Colin sighs. The bouncer jumps off the toilet and comes round to meet Colin as he leaves the cubicle.
âLetâs go, sunshine.â
With a fat white hand on each shoulder, Colin is pushed slowly through The Bar. The crowd parts in front of him. Wankers turn to watch. Bitches whisper and Colin finds himself outside with Boys 1 and 2.
âYouâve been chucked out, too?â he says, straightening his collar. âWhat for?â
âFighting,â says Boy 2, quietly into his sleeve.
âWanking,â screams Boy 1, over his shoulder, running quickly towards a bus.
The following morning. Colin suggests that they all eat breakfast at the hospital. The others follow for one important reason: for the hell of it. They walk from Boy 2âs flat in Victoria Park to the Infirmary off Oxford Road by the University of Manchester. On the second floor they find the Wishing Well, a grim cafeteria where the light is the yellow of vomit and the air is always grey. The pregnant and the dying shuffle here, trays in their hands, hair terrified by nocturnal static.
All three boys order English breakfasts. Since being guided from The Bar last night, Colin is sure that something haschanged. That the intricate pipes of his brain have been tampered with, or one little tube has slumped accidentally from its socket and has begun to leak into his open skull, closing off a hemisphere of feeling and thought.
âI canât be arsed going out any more. All those wankers, chasing cunts â I canât be fucked with that.â Colin watches Boys 1 and 2 closely. His veins seem to course with fizzy blood. Or something bitter, perhaps. Boy 2 forks an entire sausage with one jab and allows it to hover in front of his face.
âYou donât have to go out, Colin. You can shag prostitutes.â
âThey make you wear condoms and you canât kiss âem.â
âSo?â
âI donât know,â Colin snaps and Boy 2 crunches at the sausage. âWhat do you think of these women?â asks Colin