went fishing, whereâs your pole? Huh? If you
really
went fishing, whereâs this
world-famous
sucker of yours?â
âI lost them,â said Harold. He scrunched up his eyes to keep from crying. He hated coming home.
âYou canât go out without losing
something
.â She shook her head, her mouth in a frown. âYouâd think money grew on
trees
, the way you treat the things we buy you.â
âIt was just a crummy old stick,â he said.
âAnd why is
that
? Huh?â Mrs. Beesley tugged at her dress; it was stuck to the steps with sweat. âBecause you
lost
your good one. You lost your
reel
and your
knife
and your
net
.â She counted the things off on her fingers, whapping her hand with the paper. âTwo pairs of
shoes
and
eight
pairs of mittens over the winter. Where have they gone? Huh? Where have they
gone
?â
Harold shrugged. âI donât know,â he said. It wasnât a lie. Everything sheâd named had been snatched away; he didnât know where they were.
âYou donât know
nothing
,â she said. âI should send you out like Farmer Hullâs old
beat-up
Dodge, all tied together with bits of string and wire.â
He couldnât help it then. He started to cry, and the tears rolled out from under his little dark glasses. He missed his father terribly, his father and his brother. They had never shouted at him, and in those days neither had his mother. Hopalong John was right; the war had ruined everything, and the war had made her crazy.
âAnd whatâs
that
in your hand?â she asked.
Harold looked at the paper as though he had never seen it before. âA ticket,â he said. âTo the circus.â
âHuh!â she cried. âAnd I suppose you caught
that
while you were fishing.â
âI was given it,â he said.
âWell, if you think youâre going off to the circus, youâve another think coming,â said Mrs. Beesley. âYour fatherâs not going to stand for your going to the circus.â
Harold said stubbornly, âHe isnât my father.â Then he climbed up the steps and went right past his mother, into the house and through to the kitchen. Honey went behind him.
Strips of brown tape hung from the ceiling, matted with the bodies of flies. They spun slowly in the drafts of warm air that came through the window screens. Harold filled Honeyâs water dish and watched for a while as she drank. Then he opened the white slab door of the refrigerator and found a jug of iced tea inside, with wedges of lemon and lime bobbing on the surface.
âI wondered how long it would take you to sniff that out,â said Mrs. Beesley, suddenly filling the doorway. âNow you just keep out of that icebox, you hear.â
âItâs a refrigerator, Ma.â
âOh!â she said. âWell, you just keep
out
of it, because that iced teaâs for your
father
, you hear? Heâs going to be hot, and heâs going to be tired, because heâs out there in this
devilâs heat
searching all of Godâs acres for you.â
Harold didnât answer. He closed the door with his hip.
âAnd here he is now,â she said, hearing his step on the porch. She fussed at her dress, at her tangles of hair. Suddenly she was smiling. âOh, all right,â she said. âYou can have one glass. A
little
one, mind. And bring a large one for your father.â
Walter Beesley had blisters on his feet and a mass of burrs clinging to his pants. âI walked right to the Rattlesnake,â he said. âClear to the Rattlesnake.â
âYou poor thing,â said Mrs. Beesley. She sat him down in the big armchair, beside the card table covered with his albums and stamps. She knelt on the floor and untied the laces of his bankerâs shoes.
He leaned back, exhausted. He could barely lift an arm to take the glass from Harold. âWell, at