the dark with a picture of the house in my head, it all seems unreal. My parents have never expressed any great desire to live in the country. I didnât even know they liked the country. They like being able to walk to a café and meet friends for breakfast, or go to the movies, and do all the other things they can, now that Max and I donât have to be babysat. What are they going to do two hours out of Melbourne? Chase koalas down the street? Join the local fire brigade? Hold community meetings? I canât imagine how thatâs going to work. And Iâm going to have to walk into a new school, see a whole bunch of kids whoâve grown up together, then try to smile and be friendly in the vague hope someone will be nice to me. I hate making friends. Thatâs why Iâve got Ruby. Sheâs my friend and sheâs nice to people, so they think I am too. But without her around to look after me, or talk to me â
Hello, lonely girl.
3
the attic
If you havenât been to Gideon, youâre lucky. Itâs this boring little town about two hours from the city. There are fifteen shops. I counted them when we drove in. Mum keeps going on and on about how pretty it is, but all I can see are trees. And trees are fine, but you canât go shopping in them and you canât eat them. Not unless youâre a possum. And Iâm just a girl being dragged along after my parents, because Dadâs lost his job. Gideonâs one of those towns you go to to die. Thereâs a swamp they call a beach (the localsâ idea of a joke), a dead end they call a main street (again, hilarious) and a classroom they call a school (yep). Maybe itâs a good place for a daytrip, but not to move to. Not to sell our fantastic house in the city for, or pull us out of school and leave all our friends for. Thatâs deranged.
So today weâre driving to Gideon just to see our new house. And then we have to go back to the city, pack up our old house, put it on the market, and move to this dump of a place in a couple of weeks.
At least Mum and Dad let Ruby come this time â to shut me up, probably. And Iâm really glad they did. Iâve got nothing to say to my parents, so sheâs talking for both of us. In fact Iâve barely talked at all over the past week. After I realised nothing I said would stop them from making us move, Iâve avoided them altogether.
They tried to get me to clean up my room for a real estate agent and a photographer who came to take photos, but I went to Rubyâs instead. When I got back, Mum had clearly made some sort of effort to pack things away, because my room was neater than Iâd ever seen it. I hate the idea that someone was in there without me, taking shots of all my things, so they can advertise our house.
Everyone at school knows weâre leaving. Must have been Max, because I certainly havenât told anyone except Ruby. The few friends Iâve got want to have a party, but I just want to slink away in the night without having to say goodbye to everyone. Ruby made me a map, where she stitched a red line between our houses. She calls it the 196 map because there will be exactly 196 kilometres between us. I know itâs kind of her, and that sheâs trying to make me feel better about moving, but I donât want to feel better; I want to be pissed off.
And now weâreseconds away from the house and Iâm starting to get a headache. As Dad turns the corner into Simpson Street, Max rolls against me, bumping his sweaty arm against mine.
âEw!â I say, pushing him back onto his side, angry about how cheery heâs being. Not that I expect him to agree with me, but a bit of solidarity would be nice.
Simpson Street is one of those weird long streets that only have about twelve houses. So the street goes on and on, but thereâs just empty land where the houses should be. Itâs a sure sign people came to their