hair is sticking out near her ear.
âOnly a few miles now, I think,â Paine tells her as they leave behind the bustling stretch of Route 60 in Fredonia, a small college town perched in the southwesternmost corner of New York. This is where they got off the interstate, and even the unremarkable strip-mall sprawl is a welcome change from hundreds of miles of freeway driving.
Only nobody calls it the âfreewayâ here in the East, Paine reminds himself. Yesterday, a service station attendant and a motel desk clerk corrected him about that. Here, itâs called the thruway.
âOkay, tell me everything you see, Daddy.â
He smiles at Dulcieâs familiar commandâsmiles at her innate bossiness, inherited from her mother, and at her insatiable thirst to know whatâs going on around her.
When she was younger, she was satisfied with broad descriptions: thereâs a red barn or the sky is blue with a few white clouds. Now, at six, she wants him to paint verbal pictures that are as detailed as possible. How big is the barn? Does it have windows? How many windows? Are there horses and cows? How many clouds, Daddy? What are their shapes?
When he isnât with her, he finds himself noticing the most intricate aspects of ordinary things, just as he does when heâs being her eyes. Sometimes he catches himself scrutinizing strangers: subconsciously counting the rings on a womanâs fingers or noticing the color of the stripes in a manâs tie.
âDaddy?â
He smiles, clears his throat. âWeâre heading south, and we just passed through what looks like the last busy intersection on the fast-food stripâArbyâs, McDonaldâs, Wendyâs.â
âWal-Mart, too?â
âHowâd you know that?â
âBecause thereâs always a Wal-Mart. In every town weâve stopped in, wherever that other stuff is, thereâs a Wal-Martâ
Nothing escapes Dulcieâs attention. Nothing. He smiles, thinking, as always, that sheâs an incredible kid. So much like her mother.
Oh, Kristin. If only you could see her. . .
If only he could believe that she could, that her life didnât end that traumatic day three years ago. That the essence of the woman he cherished still exists somewhere. That sheâs with him and their daughter, and always will be.
But thatâs religious crap. Kristin never bought into it, and neither does he. As far as heâs concerned, when youâre dead, youâre dead. Gone. Buried. Forever.
âGo on, Daddy.â In the rearview mirror, he sees Dulcie settling back, her face tilted toward the window as though sheâs looking through it.
He swallows the bitter grief swelling from his gut forcing an upbeat tone into his voice. âNow the road is two lanes instead of four, and itâs opening up more. I see hills aheadâweâre climbing. And thereâs farmlandâlots of corn, and itâs as high as an elephantâs eye.â
âHuh?â
âNever mind, Dulc.â He smiles faintly to himself.
The corn is as high as an elephantâs eye. . .
Lyrics from the song âOh, What a Beautiful Morningâ in the Rodgers and Hammerstein musical Oklahoma! Paine performed it in summer stock at Chautauqua a full decade ago when he first met Kristin. He played Curly. Kristin was Ado Annie.
âWhy am I always cast as the slut?â she only half jokingly asked the director at that point, having previously played Aldonza in Man of La Mancha and Mary Magdalene in Jesus Christ, Superstar.
âWhat else, Daddy?â
Dulcieâs voice launches him back to the present.
âThere are grape vineyardsââhe glances from left to rightââand produce stands and two-story frame houses. Some of them have barns.â
âNice houses?â
âSome are,â he says, looking around as he gently presses the brake. âSome of them have nice