MacKenzie smiles at us.
No sooner had Cooper and I sat down when an older doctor with salt and pepper hair comes in followed by a younger looking doctor. They both greet us. Dr. Anderson is the older attending doctor and Dr. Carter, the staff oncologist. Both doctors attempt to wake up mom but she’s so out of it. She opens her eyes and then nods right back off again.
The doctors go over the chart with each other and were exchanging a few words that I couldn’t repeat if you asked me to before they turn their attention to us.
Dr. Carter had a gloomy smile on his face as he looked over at me and then to Hunter. “As you both know by now your mother has cancer.” We both shake our heads. “It’s Stage 3A lung cancer, to be exact.”
All the blood rushes to my ears and I’ll I can hear is the whooshing hollow sound. I know that most cancer has only four stages and if mom’s at stage three it’s not good at all.
“We did a biopsy, a scan, and a few tests just last week and after reviewing the results of them it looks like the cancer has spread to the lymph nodes on the same side of the chest that the cancer is on.” Cooper squeezes me closer to his side. He knows this isn’t good either.
“What exactly does Stage 3A mean? Will she need chemo, radiation, surgery?” Hunter asks as his voice shakes.
Dr. Carter swallows. “With this advanced stage of cancer we are unable to operate since the cancer has already started to spread places that were inoperable. It’s a fast advancing cancer.” He looks down to the chart for a second. “We’d like to start a round of chemotherapy with definitive radiation as soon as possible. With your mother’s fever we aren’t able to start immediately until her temperature returns to normal.”
Dr. Anderson pipes in, “She’ll be administered antibiotics here through her IV and when her fever has broken she’ll be allowed to go home.”
Dr. Anderson proceeds over to the door, calls for the nurse and orders the antibiotics to start immediately.
Dr. Carter continues. “Your mother will continue with the pain medication to make her comfortable, as well. Aside from this, your mother has been pretty healthy and with the rounds of chemo and radiation combined, I believe, will be able to prolong the cancer from spreading any further.”
The ‘I believe’ doesn’t sit well with me and I have to ask the painful question. “And if it doesn’t?”
Hunter cuts his eyes to me in shock that I even asked.
“Then we’ll address that when we come to that road. This stage of lung cancer is very serious and we’re going to do whatever possible to make your mother as comfortable as possible.”
“And there is a chance she could die,” I say softly as my head falls forward in defeat.
“Yes, that is a possibility but we will fight and make her comfortable until the end.”
No one else in the room says anything for a while. The loud silence returning. Mom hasn’t even stirred since the doctors tried waking her. The medication keeping her in a deep sleep, which is probably a good thing since she hasn’t been resting well lately.
“Thank you, Dr. Carter,” Hunter says.
“Dr. Anderson here will be keeping me up-to-date if anything changes. Your mom should start feeling better as soon as tomorrow with the antibiotics we are administering and I’ll be back at some point tomorrow to check on her.”
Both the doctors leave the room and I feel like they’ve sucked all the air out of the room when they left. MacKenzie climbs off Hunter’s lap and nods towards the door with her head. Cooper kisses the side of my head and steps out into the hallway with his sister.
I stand and pace the room, biting on my bottom lip. How can someone who was happy and healthy have such a huge turn of events that has completely turned their world upside down?
“We can’t lose her, Hunter,” I say stopping near the foot of her bed. The words leave a bad taste in my mouth.
“We aren’t