Iâm an international mutt. My mumâs from Sydney, my dadâs from L.A. originally, and then he moved me out to Atlanta with him when he got his new job two years ago.â
I wanted to ask why his mom was in Sydney when his dad was here in the States, but I didnât want to pry and I didnât want to know any more personal details about him. I could handle an empty attraction. Anything more would be dangerous. But when I glanced up, I found Colt watching me, like he knew I wanted more and was testing me, waiting to see whether I would be like every other person on the planet or whether I would back away from the bait.
I dropped my gaze. âIâve always wanted to visit Sydney.â
âYou should. Itâs my favorite place. Well, other than here.â
My eyes cut up to his, and I felt a tingle move down my spine. Did he hold every girlâs gaze like that?
âWhoâs swimming?â Preston called from behind me, and then we all made our way over to a section of chairs by the pool that were free. Olivia and Sarah spread out their towels on two of the chairs, and I sat down on a third, Ethan at the foot of the chair between my legs. Sunglasses covered his eyes, but I could tell that he was checking out the girls in the pool, half of them wearing swimsuits made of strings and little else. I knew that I should care that he was looking at them, that I should feel jealous or angry or something, but none of those feelings came. Instead, I felt a surge of relief. Like maybe if he was looking at others . . . then I could, too.
I cursed myself for being such a crappy girlfriend and reached down for the hem of my T-shirt. It was hotter than hot outside, so I pulled the shirt over my head, revealing my white tank top underneath, and leaned back against my chair. I opened my eyes to find Colt standing to our right, his eyes locked on me. I expected him to look away, but instead he walked over and sat in the chair beside me, ignoring the pleas from Ethan and Preston to go into the water. Sarah and Olivia followed the boys, and suddenly, it was just me and Colt, lying in chairs beside one another.
âWhy didnât you ask about my mum?â he asked after a minute.
I draped an arm over my head to help block the sun and squinted up at him. âBecause you didnât look like you wanted to talk about it and it isnât my business.â
âThatâs never kept anyone else from asking.â
âMaybe Iâm not like everyone else.â
His gaze settled on my face, steady and sure. âIâm starting to see that.â
âWhy do you put those crazy things up on Facebook?â I asked, because I was evidently Kara the Curious Cat. Gah, why couldnât I keep my mouth shut around him?
He smirked. âWhy do you always put up song lyrics?â
My eyes widened. He laughed, and the sound was the most comforting thing Iâd heard in a long time. Colt had been on my Facebook page. More than once. Maybe every day.
âThey make me feel better,â I said, realizing the truth of my words.
He leaned his head back against his chair and rotated it to face me. âWhy do you need to feel better?â
âDonât you? Donât we all?â
He opened his mouth to reply when a surge of water landed on both of us. I jerked up to see Ethan splashing around in the water with some girl I didnât know. Again, I searched my heart for some hint that it bothered me, but the ache never came.
âDoesnât that piss you off?â Colt asked, his eyes trained on the scene in the pool.
I swallowed. âIt pisses me off to look like the fool girlfriend thatâs putting up with it, but do I actually care?â I hesitated, glancing back at Ethan, at the smile on his face as he splashed the girl. âThat hasnât bothered me in a long, long time.â
âIs that normal?â
I laughed. Who was I to know normal? âNo clue.