on the counter. âYou already know the basics. My mum raised me by herself.â
He folded his arms on his chest and sat back. Sheâd had his full attention in the past. But usually it was when she was was giving him a report on something sheâd investigated for him. Today he wanted to know about her, and the syrupy warmth that rode her veins wasnât from excitement at sharing her story. It was fear. Hot, slithery fear.
When she told people about her past, it changed how they perceived her. No one saw the bright, ambitious woman whoâd worked her way up from nothing. They saw the little girl whoâd begged for food. And they pitied her. Frequently, she got perks she didnât deserve, but no promotions. No one could ever get beyond her past enough to recognize her value.
If she told Gabe, she risked he would never again see her as the woman heâd kissed the night before. Heâd only see her past. And heâd pity her.
But if she didnât tell him, heâd believe he was right.
She had to take that risk.
âWhat you donât know is that my mum was a drug addict. I had to beg for money from strangers to eat. I got most of my clothes from dumpsters.â She toyed with the handle of her mug so she wouldnât have to look at him. âAnd youâre right. I didnât really want you to know that.â
When she finally glanced up at him, his eyes were squeezed shut. âIâm sorry.â
âDonât feel sorry for me.â She rose from her stool and walked to the counter to warm her coffee, putting distance between them.
âI donât.â His soft, patient voice rattled through her. âIâm sorry I made you explain that.â
âNow that itâs out, Iâm glad I told you.â She wasnât. Not even a little bit. She could already sense the change in him, hear the sympathy in his voice, recognize the sadness in his eyes.
She shouldnât have taken the risk. But had there been a choice? She knew him; if sheâd been anything less than honest, his reaction would have been worse.
So now he pitied her. And heâd be stalled there. Heâd never see her as anything but that hungry little girl. Heâd never touch her again, never kiss her. Forget loving her.
With a heavy heart, she headed for the kitchen door. âIâm going to shower and get dressed.â
***
Kara left the room and Gabe slumped to the counter. Heâd expected her to tell him that sheâd done without some luxuries. Then heâd intended to slam her with his ex-wifeâs similar past to show her he had a reason to protect himself.
Now he just felt like hell.
By the time she returned to the kitchen, dressed in one of her ugly suits, wearing her bun and black-frame glasses, Stacy was awake and begging for pancakes.
âGood morning,â Kara said to Stacy.
His daughter smiled broadly as Kara entered, and his heart stuttered. He couldnât imagine his sweet little blue-eyed blonde begging for food, yet Kara had. Sheâd had no choice. He pictured her at six or seven, her long red hair whipped around by a biting Rhode Island winter wind. Her fingers numb with cold. Her stomach empty. And his heart shattered.
Still, he smiled when he faced her. âIâm making pancakes.â
She turned away. âThatâs okay. Iâm not hungry.â
He froze. Had he battered her pride so much that now she couldnât accept anything from him?
What had he done?
Chapter Five
Kara was in the den when the McKenzies arrived. Excited to see the triplets, she bounced from her seat and raced up the hall, but she stopped. She was Gabeâs assistant, here at his beach house to work. She wasnât a friend. Though sheâd love to see those triplets again, it wasnât her place to run into the kitchen and greet them.
She heard Wyatt telling Stacy it was time to play and Stacyâs jubilant squeal. She also heard