it.â
âIs it really true youâre marrying Zach Fleming?â He scratched his head in what appeared to be an exaggerated manner. âI guess I have my facts mixed up.â
âArmin, have you heard what Iâve heard?â Mommy Anna said.
All eyes pivoted my direction.
âBest not to spread en Gebrummelâ arumor,â Nathaniel said.
I filled my mouth with muffin so I wouldnât have to partake of the conversation, but it tasted of baking powder and was too salty. Mommy Anna had forgotten sugar and not added enough cornmeal.
My mouth puckered. I gulped a mouthful of water and struggled to swallow.
âZachary Fleming is a respected veterinarian now,â Nathaniel told Armin. âHe brought that ointment for Cookieâs leg.â
âYah, I know him, not a bad fellow.â Armin dished himself a plateful of casserole. âAnd youâre planning to marry him, Holly?â
âYes, I am.â I considered marching over to Bethâs house to see if Zach were really there.
Nathaniel swallowed a mouthful. âArmin, it isnât polite to pry, and you know that. Youâve been living an Englisch life too long.â
Armin patted around his mouth with his napkin. âSorry, Holly, no offense meant.â
âI accept your apology.â Armin had a charming personality, not to mention his looks. I bet many women found him irresistibleâlike hummingbirds hovering around a feeder full of sugar water.
I recalled being drawn to Nathaniel when Iâd first met him weeks ago. How dumb was that? But Armin possessed all Nathanielâs good attributes plus a feistiness I found appealing. Or would have, if I were not in love with another man. The moment Zach appeared, Arminâs appeal would fade away. Like this nasty-tasting muffin, looks could be deceiving. I set the rest of my muffin aside and hoped Mommy Anna didnât notice.
âYouâve come home for good, Armin?â Mommy Anna said.
âFor a while, anyways.â
My appetite diminishing, I forced myself to consume a few bites of Momâs noodle casserole; I realized sheâd been cooking Amish my whole life, but how would I have known?
âAre you planning to join the Amish church?â I asked Armin, and Nathaniel stopped chewing for a moment, as if to better hear his reply.
âI havenât decided.â Armin sneaked a glance at Nathaniel.
âAnd whatâs keeping ya?â Nathanielâs terse question came out in staccato.
âIâve only been home a few days, and already youâre on my back.â Armin set his napkin on the table. âIs this why you invited me in?â
âNo, donât leave, please,â my mother said. âLetâs all get to know one another.â
âYah, Armin, I wantcha ta stay,â Mommy Anna said. âNo bickering at the table, and no more questions.â Her browsâmere wispsâmet over graying sage-green eyes. âWeâre going to be family soon.â
As if standing afar, I examined my life in fast-forward. I listened to a car putter by, and a horseâs clopping and buggyâs steel-rimmed wheels on the road out front of the house. But of course Zach wouldnât be driving a buggy. When it came down to it, every man Iâd ever loved had cheated and left me. Not that Dad cheated, but he left me when he hadnât needed to. Mom said he was a nonresistant conscientious objector and could have avoided military service during the Vietnam War by applying for a farm deferment. I couldnât fathom why he and my mother didnât return to the safety of the Amish community, where he could have worked for his father or another local Amish farmer.
A truck pulled beside the house and shut off its engine. âZach.â I folded my napkin, set it next to my plate.
âNee, âtis a delivery truck dropping off a package,â Nathaniel said.
âBut it could