pussy. Worldâs fraidiest rottweiler.â
âSheâs not even half rottweiler,â said Mom.
âWell, that explains it,â said Dad.
Matt measured the distance across the kitchen table as if Dad were a tackler who needed to be avoided or leveled. He must know he canât take me anymore, thought Matt. Thatâs why we donât box anymore. Maybe itâs time for some hard proof.
Chill. In a few hours youâll be on a bus out of here.
âWhen we come back,â said Matt. âA barbecue when we come back.â
âCan I go?â asked Junie. âIâll help. Do burgers.â He mimed slapping meat patties on a grill.
âWouldnât that be nice,â said Mom.
âCan you drop Matt off at the bus?â Dad was changing the subject. Might have won that one. âIâve got a bar mitzvah all the way up in Bergen Lakes.â
âIâm covered,â said Matt. All I need, Mom drops me off.
âNo problem,â said Mom.
âIâll drive myself,â said Matt.
âNot likely,â said Dad in his John Wayne voice. âLeave the Jeep in the school parking lot for a week?â
âFive days. No oneâll bother it.â
âWhat if I need a backup car?â The mask was dropping again. âYou know, Matt, you may be a big cheese on the team, but youâre still part of this family, living in my house, eating my food, driving a car leased to Rydek Catering. Youâre on my payroll.â
Matt said nothing. He felt himself shrinking, hating the helpless feeling. For a moment, the only sounds in the kitchen were Romoâs whimpers. Then Mom said, âWeâll work it out.â
âIâm sure you will.â Dad marched out. Over his shoulder, he said, âA good camp is the foundation of a good season. Remember that.â
Remember this, thought Matt, imagining raising a middle finger to Dadâs back.
FIVE
âYour father really cares about you, Matt.â Then Mom added, âHe cares about both his boys.â
It sounded tacked on to Matt. He checked Junie in the Jeepâs rearview mirror. He was fussing with Romoâs collar and didnât seem to have heard. But you can never be sure what he picks up on, Matt thought. Retarded doesnât mean dumb.
Mom was cranking up. âItâs just the way your father communicates. Heâs very direct. Sometimes that can be off-putting to people who donât understand him. He can even sound angry.â
âNot angry,â said Junie. âJust trying to scare you. To get his way.â
Mom whirled around. âWho told you that?â
âIs that wrong?â Junieâs voice trembled.
âI told him,â said Matt quickly. âAt the game, when he was ragging on the ump.â
âYou were right, Junie honey,â said Mom. She lowered her voice. âYou have to be careful what you say, Matt.â Then she patted his knee. âGive your father a chance. He only wants the best for you.â
He had heard this so many times that tuning it out was as easy as tapping the mute. He was feeling too good to let it get at him now. In a couple of hours he would be far away. He felt relaxed in the heat of the afternoon. He had cleared his head with a long run in the cool, sweet foothills a few miles from the house and then a giggly hour on the living room rug with Junie and Romo, watching cartoons and wrestling. Junie needed more physical activity. Once school starts and Junieâs back at his part-time cafeteria job, Matt thought, he can hang out at football practice, run a little, lift a few light weights. Coach Mac would be cool with that.
âAmanda?â
That brought him back in a hurry. âWhat?â
âWhen does she get back?â
âWhy?â
âYou sound so defensive. Everything all right between you two?â
âWhy do you say that?â
âMotherâs