My new strength and newfound sexual appeal was now gone by the wayside. Shoving this aside for later, I brought up the important issue at hand.
“I need to talk to Ana . I s she back yet?”
“I haven’t seen her yet . I suppose she’ll show when she’s ready to talk to you.”
“When she’s ready?” I felt my anger start to simmer.
“I am tired of waiting around on her. I appreciate the shower and the bed for the night, but I will be going back to my family. I want answers from her ; she owes them to me! I did nothing to her, nothing to deserve what she has done to my life, and I am supposed to wait around until she feels like talking about it?” I said incredulously.
I started feeling caged and angry all over again. I began to pace around the kitchen island in an attempt to calm myself, to find an outlet for my confusion and frustration.
“Juliana. Juliana, please sit down. Let’s talk about this . I can’t answer your questions about why Ana did what she did, but I can help to explain about what is going on with you. Please, sit down with me. We need to talk about your family,” William was saying as I paced.
“What about my family?” I said with a barely disguised threat, w hether I could back it up didn’t matter; I wouldn’t let them be threatened.
“You misunderstand me,” he said while holding up his hands placating, “I’m not threatening them.”
He slowly put his hands back on the table . H e knew I wasn’t any sort of threat to him; the gesture was more of one of goodwill. At this, I slowly strode toward him in a slow fluid manner.
“What of my family?” I tried again in a softer tone.
“You can’t go back home, and before you start to yell and fight me on this, think about what happened at the park. My intent is not to bring you more pain and anguish than has already been thrust upon you, but if you go back home you will do t o them what you did to that man. And that you would never recover from. Please listen to me.”
I heard his words, and I knew he spoke the truth . I f I went home , I could very well lose control and hurt or even worse , kill my children and husband. I knew I would fight to the death to protect those three, even if it were me I was protecting them from.
“The idea of never seeing them again, of letting them go on not knowing what happened to me ; allowing them to think I’d been abducted, having no idea if I was even still alive or what was being done to me; that seems beyond cruel.”
“It may seem cruel, but it is necessary to ensure their safety.”
I didn’t like what he was saying, and I still didn’t think that he was telling me everything about why he was so concerned about me. I wasn’t getting the whole story.
“I have to tell them something! Even if I can’t be with them, they need to know I’m not lying in some abandoned warehouse somewhere! They need to know I’m okay, that I will come to see them when I can. I can’t do this to them!”
I turned to walk away . I was aware that it was getting near sunrise, but I didn’t have to wait out the day here listening to how cruel I should be to the family I loved. I was going to my room to make a plan of what to do. I was suddenly aware of William coming up behind me, and I could sense his barely checked anger.
He spun me around and had me pressed up against the wall with his body. He put a forearm on the wall to each side of my head. I was caged in by him. He pressed so close I don’t think a piece of paper could have been slipped between our bodies. I felt like I was trapped in with a caged animal, an incredibly sexy animal, but still one that was completely unpredictable to me as of yet. I didn’t move or say anything, afr aid I would provoke him further. I just waited to see what it was he wanted .
He brushed his face across my cheek and into my hair and inhaled deeply, “You smell like honeysuckle with a hint of vanilla, it’s almost irresistible.”
“Well, I was