that I know what my nightmare is, it doesnât seem as scary anymore. In fact, Iâm so happy to name it, I almost donât notice Mrs. Mpho standing at the side of the road. She waves me over with a dish rag, mad as a hornet: âIâll have you know my familyâs underpants are clean as the priestâs!â
âWhat are you talking about?â
Her mouth drops open like sheâs out to catch flies. âDonât play the innocent. This very morning I was hanging my laundry, when Rose Tafa waltzed by. âWhy, Chanda,â she said into that phone of hers, âMrs. Mphoâs forgot to scrub her undies again.ââ
âWhoever Mrs. Tafa was talking to, it wasnât me,â I say. âI was at school. Only the principal has a phone. If you want to complain, complain to Mrs. Tafa. I dare you.â
I leave Mrs. Mpho cursing in my direction, and speed to Mrs. Tafaâs, too upset to think. Mrs. Tafa is squeezed into her lawn chair, fanning herself with a fly swatter. Soly and Iris are at her feet, drinking her famous lemonade.
Iris points smugly at her hair. Itâs in tight, shiny cornrows, beads woven throughout. âLook what Auntie Rose did. She knows how to do it right. And I didnât have to say ouch once, did I, Auntie?â
âNo, you were an angel,â Mrs. Tafa beams. She peers up her nose at me. âIf you donât mind my saying so, that girlâs hair looked like a weaverâs nest.â
I try not to scream. âAuntie Rose.â I clip each word. âHow dare you pretend that I gossip with you on your cell phone!â
âWho says I do?â
âMrs. Mpho.â
Mrs. Tafa sniffs. âThat womanâs got coconuts in her head.â She rearranges her rear end on her chairâs vinyl seat straps. The aluminum legs wobble. I pray theyâll buckle and send the old goat onto her backside with her dress over her head.
I turn to the kids. âSoly, Iris. Come with me. Itâs time for supper.â
âAuntieâs already fed us,â Soly says.
My eyes bulge. âWhat?â
âYou were late,â Mrs. Tafa chides. âThe poor things were starving.â
âBut Esther was making supper,â I say.
âEsther. Cooking.â Mrs. Tafa shudders. âWho knows where those hands have been? Besides, the children get far better food here.â
Iris nods vigorously. âAuntie Rose gave us chicken and figs and sweet potatoes and things that came out of a can.â
I grab my bike and storm to our yard, leaving the kids behind with Mrs. Tafa. Estherâs chasing Sammy and Magda around the outhouse. She stops when she sees me. âDonât blame me,â she says, before I can get out a word. âI went over to Mrs. Tafaâs and called them to eat: eggs and maize bread. Mrs. Tafa told me that she was looking after things and for me to mind my own business.â
âEsther,â I say fiercely, âweâre going for a walk.â
We get Sammy and Magda to promise theyâll stay in the yard till weâre back. Then we march past Mrs. Tafaâs, Esther struggling to keep up.
âWhere are you going?â Soly calls out to me.
âNowhere,â I yell. âEat some more figs, why donât you?â
âAre you mad?â
I stare straight ahead and keep stomping. We end up at the empty sandlot a few blocks away, sitting on the rusty swing set that the city put up, back when the place was supposed to be a park. I grab my side chains, push off the ground, and swing up hard with all my might.
âItâs not fair,â I say bitterly. âIâm losing the kids. Mrs. Tafaâs got time and money. She can do things for them that I canât. Mr. Selalame says my nightmareâs because of stress. Well maybe sheâs the stress. Maybe sheâs what Iâm afraid is out to get them. I hate her. I hate her I hate her I hate