so I can get over it.
I flip the cover to find the pictures have shifted in my bag. One corner of Annaâs photo is visible, vacant eyeholes changing her smile into something sinister. I push them back into the folder. I donât think the pictures are going to tell me anything. Or maybe I just donât want to look at them anymore.
Either way, there are other things to focus on. Like all those stupid names. Or the Latin, which I could ask Hadley about.
I flip to November 2nd to get Shaneâs nickname from the accident entry. RJG. I know jack all about him, so it could mean anything. Iâve got to find something else.
I flip through the pages, looking for another mention. The only other mention of RJG/Shane is an ass smack in the middle of the hallway, but I wasnât there for that. And itâs hardly newsworthy. But there are other, scarier things in here. Like the cretin sending crotch shots to freshmen, or whoever Tricky is and whatever goods heâs dealing.
Iâm guessing Tucker Smith for that one. Most of the kids around here are content to get drunk in someoneâs hot tub or maybe pass around an occasional joint. Dealing pharmaceuticals on school property is a bit big city for us.
I thumb through a couple more pages but stop on October 12th.
LQ says heâll beat the shit out of Shutter if she doesnât shut her piehole
My arms tighten with goose bumps. Thatâs me. Me and Manny. Iâd given him a ride that day. It was a crap morning. Manny wasnât ready when I got to his place, and then on the way to school, heâd dropped the bomb on me that he was bailing on his post-graduation community college plans for at least a year. Told me not everyone had a fat education fund waiting for them like I did.
I was so shocked that I almost missed Hemlock Street. Spilled my coffee all over both of us to make the turn.
We fought the rest of the six blocks to school over the college thing and the money thing, even over the stupid coffee. And halfway down the main hallway, he said this. These exact words.
I can still see him shaking his blond head, coffee spatter staining the hem of his ancient Green Day T-shirt. I was sporting a matching stain on my jeans.
âI donât get why you canât just take a loan like you planned,â I said. âItâs like you want me to nag.â
âReally donât.â
âThen donât give up on college, Manny.â
âYou sound like a public service announcement.â
âIf youâd prefer, I could try a jaunty song about the merits of higher education.â
Heâd finally grinned. âIâm gonna beat the shit out of you if you donât shut your piehole.â
It was a joke. That comment was the end of the fight, not the beginning. And anyone who knows anything about us would know that. Manny wouldnât hurt me. Not ever. Heâd pound anyone else who tried.
Weâve been friends since before the beginning of time. We even dated brieflyâa disastrous error in judgment for both of usâduring sophomore year. If whoever wrote this thought what he said that morning was some sort of legitimate threat⦠I donât know, maybe the whole book is crap like this, stuff blown way out of proportion.
Maybe.
A quick scan of the pages reveals that Iâm only listed once. Unless Iâve got more than one nickname. I search again, this time for Manny, who, for reasons I canât fathom, is LQ.
I find his nickname three more times. Once propositioning Candace for sex. No surprise there. Two other times in October.
I spot the first one on October 7th.
IB paying LQ to clear some record up
And then on October 23rd.
LQ blackmailing Reese, possibly over attendance corrections?
A breathless laugh spurts from my mouth. I read the entries again. Manny. Blackmailing someone. Sure.
The ideaâs so ridiculous I throw the book back in my bag and close the flap. I laugh again.