stomach wasnât flopping anymore. I said, âGorgeous? What does that mean?â
I know what it means, but I wanted her to tell me. She laughed. âIt means youâre gonna be a heartbreaker some day, Kid. Now go to sleep and dream about the Sugar Plum Fairy.â
I said, âIâm too old for that.â I yawned.
She said, âThen dream youâre Mickey Mantle.â
Now Wendy shakes me and says, âDid you hit a home run, Gorgeous?â and I remember Mickey Mantle, and Iâm going to be a heartbreaker, and that must be good because Wendy smiled when she said it. She leans down and says, âThat pill really swacked you. Why donât you look out the window? Thatâll wake you up. Weâre approaching Panama City.â
Wendy has freckles on her nose and red hair pulled back in a bun, and sheâs wearing a garrison cap. My dad has one. He says the Marines call it a pisscutter. Sheâs wearing a brown skirt thatâs tight and a white blouse with a brown bow tie and an Eisenhower jacket. Sheâs got a pair of silver wings, and I want her to give them to me, but I know I canât ask.
The man in front of me asks her for a book of matches, and she winks at me and says, âRight away, sir,â and goes on up the aisle, and I pull aside the curtain and look out.
I see the ocean for the first time. The land curves down there where it meets the sea, and thereâs a wide beach the color of wheat, and I can see white waves breaking, and thereâs even a car on the beach, and I can see people walking near the car, and they look like little bugs. I look back behind us and see how the land curves, and I know from geography class thatâs what they call the Panhandle, and maybe I can see as far back as where Florida meets Alabama.
Iâm not so drowsy anymore. Iâm getting excited about my new life. Iâm going to live with my grandparents and my Aunt Delia for three months in Florida, and Iâm going to get me a boat and go fishing out there in all that blue water and catch marlins and sharks, and maybe a creature. When I come back to the dock, Iâm going to hang my big marlin up by his tail and stand next to him with my fishing rod and let people take pictures of me and put them in the newspaper, and Iâm going to cut one out and send it to my dad, and heâll be proud.
When we land, itâs like my stomach tries to get out through my throat, but Iâm ready for it now, and itâs kind of fun. We stop at the terminal, and I wait like Wendy told me and watch the passengers go up the aisle. Iâm the only kid, and the women look at me, and some of them think itâs sad Iâm traveling alone, so I look back and let my eyes say, âItâs only flying, for criminy sake. Whatâs the big deal?â
When the plane is empty, the captain and the copilot come out of the cockpit door and stretch and smile and look around. Wendy comes back and says, âTime to go, Mr. Mantle.â
She takes my hand, and I almost tell her Iâm too big for that, but I like her hand. Itâs soft and cool, and it smells good. We go up the aisle, and the captain bends down and says, âSo, what did you think of your first flight, kid?â
And I say, âNeato!â Itâs all I can think of. Iâm looking at the wings on his chest. Theyâre bigger than Wendyâs, and theyâre gold. I can smell cigarettes on his breath, and he uses Mennenâs aftershave like my dad. My face is getting red. Wendy says, âWhat the heck, Bernie, I think âneatoâ just about covers it.â
The captain smiles and ruffles my hair, and it hurts where Jimmy Pultneyâs arrow cut me. The captain says, âYup, âneatoâ does it for me, too.â
Wendy walks me through the terminal, and we pick up my suitcase, and she takes me to the place where people meet people, and I donât see my Grandma and