is having a baby or something. And it wouldnât matter anyway. He didnât cast me last yearâI only got that walk-on....â
âSo it was all Tom,â Whaley said darkly, rubbing the knuckles on one hand. âWant me to pound his face in?â
âNo!â
Geez, youâd think he could keep away from the subject of fighting just for a second.
âMy great-aunt was a director,â Mrs. Turner interjected, settling herself at the table. She leaned back comfortably in her favorite chair. âDid I ever tell you that?â
Addie shook her head, grateful for the change of subject.
âShe was. She lived in this house all her life, you know.â
âThis house?â Addie looked at her in surprise.
âOh, thatâs right.â Dad glanced up from the bottle of red wine he was uncorking. âI remember you said a relative of yours lived here before you sold us the place, Margie.â
âThat was Aunt Meg. I inherited it from her.â Mrs. T. took the bottle from him and splashed red wine into her glass. âDirected until she was in her eighties, God love her! A real terror, too.â
Dad looked at Addie thoughtfully. âWhat can I tell you, sweetheart? Iâve watched them pick other kids for the big parts as long as youâve been at that school. We all know youâre good.â He shrugged. âMaybe theyâre just jealous.â
Addie shook her head. Sorry for herself she might be, but she wasnât going to be that self-indulgent. âOr maybe Iâm no good. You canât rule out that possibility.â
âNonsense!â Mrs. T. cried. âWeâve all seen you act. Youâre with people who donât appreciate you.â
âTrue.â Almaz stuck a candle in each candleholder and lit them. âTom Starkâs not a terror. Heâs a drippy dishcloth. And Mr. Crowley isnât much better. I donât care if his wife is having a dozen babies.â The little flames danced as she blew out the match.
They were almost cheering her up. Then Dad said, âPoor Addie. I was sure youâd get the part.â
âSo was I.â Addie was mortified to hear a catch in her voice.
âIf itâs any comfort, Whaley's makeup is brilliant,â Mrs. Turner said. âWhereâd you get the idea?â
âFrom a book downstairs. Iâll get it and show you, if someone else will drain the spaghetti.â Suddenly, she was dying to be alone. Too much sympathy was as deadening as none at all. âCan I have the keys, Dad?â
âJust remember to lock up.â He dug into his pocket and held them out.
She grabbed the key chain, darted out of the room, and headed down the steps to the back hallway.
âWhew,â she said softly as she stepped inside the shop. She put the keys in her pocket, shut the door, and leaned against it. For a moment she just inhaled the comforting smells of coffee, yellowing pages, and furniture polish. A faint butterscotch light filtered through the big bay windows in the front, touching the book-lined walls. Shadows filled the store. Addie closed her eyes, savoring the moment of solitude.
But the humiliation still felt like a raw, ragged wound, and she couldnât get beyond it. Not yet. Because she hadnât told them everything. How Keira would skewer all the people who auditioned on her Facebook page. Sun was on her friends list (who knew why) and told Addie the sort of things she wrote there. God knew what Keira and her clique said about her behind her back. It was like getting bad reviews when you werenât even performing. Getting bad reviews just for existing.
She opened her eyes and went in search of the book, shoving the rolling ladder out of her way as she went.
The shiny oak floorboards creaked beneath her feet. How many afternoons had she spent here, dreaming, memorizing lines? Since she was eleven or twelve sheâd been reading her way