dreary room, a dozen ideas for improvement flooded my head.
Nancy, who had an immigrantâs mistrust of banks, kept a box of petty cash in the back room. A few times I had seen her open the box before she sent me out, like an errand girl, for feed. Now I removed the key from its hiding place and though the lock was very stiff, I turned it and threw back the lid. A faint smell rose from the interior, almost like scented toilet paper or over-ripe apples, but nothing was on top except a plastic tray containing a few pieces of junk jewelry, a pair of foam earplugs, and a harvest of bright red, floozy-length Lee Press-On Nails. I pulled up the tray with impatience, and there lay ten crisp one hundred dollar bills. Nancy! Iâd never dreamed she had this much capital! If only she would trust me with itâand here I lost a few moments to a potent daydream in which I tore out the Libraryâs U-shaped circ desk and installed a slab of black walnut. Or Zebra Wood. Then I shook myself awake and pocketed the cash. I returned the key to its hiding place, and was about to make for the door when I heard a sound that brought my heart into my mouthâthe door chime chirp, alerting me that we had a patron. As I came out of the back room, I saw it was a boy come to return a goldfish. He was about ten years old and walked, the little glass loaner bowl close to his chest, as if he had another ten years to make the journey from the door to . . .
âHurry up then,â I said. âYou wonât drop it. I was about to close up.â
Goldfish returns are the easiest, or should be, since you donât have to interact with the pet. When you do a mammal return, you stroke the animal and make a big fuss to pretend you missed it. With the goldfish, I just checked to make sure its fins were still there, and dumped it back into the tank. I didnât even pretend to know which fish it was. âVinny, huh? Alberto, huh? Or is this Iphigenia?â âThis is Percevaux,â the boy said. âSure it is, good old Percevaux.â I grabbed the record book, found the boyâs name, and crossed it off. (Another way Nancy might have used me better: Hello, computer age!) âYouâre all clear,â I told the boy. He had followed me over to the tank and remained there, watching Percevaux flick a fin. âItâs not the circus,â I said. âCome on, Iâll walk you out.â In my haste I forgot to lock the door.
On the pavement the boy threatened to walk my way, but by lingering at the corner and pretending that I was about to catch a bus, I quickly shed him. You have to be careful in this job; certain kids glom on to a Pet Librarian as if to a celebrity. Something of the animal glamour attaches, the way it would for a zookeeper or a lion tamer. I donât pretend to understand it, but fortunately this boy wasnât too hard to shake. âYou ever think about maybe getting a panda?â he said dreamily. When I roared, âNo!â he scuttled off.
For reasons I donât wish to go into, I donât have a car, and I was too impatient to wait for a bus, so I began to walk. Walk and walk and walk, past pizzerias and dry cleaners and fast lube franchises until I reached Cutwater Mall, a downscale place with a crappy food court and a hideous green and black linoleum floor rolling past stores with names like Gifts ânâ Things and Sox ânâ Stuff. My family used to go here before a better mall was builtâone with skylights and a fiberglass reproduction of the Trevi fountain.
The pet shop I wanted sat in a dark corner on the lower level, its floor seething with woodchips and hair. Puppies and kittens cowered in the front window, fish tanks bubbled and glowed along the sides. I threaded my way through the mess and found a regal teenaged girl, her hair done up so elaborately she appeared to wear a Zulu basket on her head. Lethargically she unpacked a crate of ferret