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were slightly slurred. “I’d like to have a real mommy as well.”
    “I know , darling.” Robin’s face flashed in my mind, and I felt a wave of sadness fill my soul. Nothing had been the same after the day I had left Robin’s apartment to rush home without telling her what was going on. She had said that she was willing to move past everything and try again, but we’d only seen each other twice in the last month and both times had been awkward. Every night, I thought about her and making love to her. My body ached to touch her and be touched by her, but we hadn’t slept with each other since that incident. I knew that she was hurt by what happened, but I wasn’t sure what else I could do to get her to open up herself to me, and to give me a new chance. A real new chance. I sighed as I thought about the fact that Skylar was as far away from getting a mommy as I was from figuring out Robin. I was about to stand up and get the book when I realized that Skylar was sleeping. I looked down at her sweet face as she slept and gave her a quick kiss on the cheek before turning the light off and exiting the room.
    I walked back down the stairs and into the kitchen to see if I could find something to eat , as I had forgotten to make myself something when Skylar had been acting up.
    “That was quick,” Zane looked up from the fridge as I entered the kitchen. “Want a beer?”
    “Yeah, thanks.” I nodded. “Skylar fell asleep already. Long day, I guess.”
    “I bet.” Zane opened the bottles and handed me one. “Lucky was right , though, you’re doing a great job.”
    “Thanks.” I took a chug and sighed. “It’s a lot harder than it looks.” I opened a cupboard and looked for some chips. “Want to share a pizza?” I closed the cupboard door and walked over to the fridge.
    “Sure.” Zane grinned. “You call and I’ll go ask Lucky what she wants on her slices.”
    “I thought she liked ham and onions?”
    “She does,” He rolled his eyes. “But she’s on this thing about not assuming she wants what she wants.”
    “What?” I laughed, slightly confused.
    “We all know she wants ham and onions on her pizza, but we can’t order that until she says that’s what she wants.” He made a face at me. “I think it’s the pregnancy brains, it’s made her all crazy.”
    “Oh,” I said, laughing.
    “Don’t get married, bro. It will save you from many gray hairs.”
    “You’re not married yet,” I laughed. “You can always walk away and give a better guy a shot.”
    “Why do I feel you’re not joking?” He half-smiled at me, and stared at me. “Everything okay with you and Robin?”
    “There is no me and Robin.” I looked away. “Go and get Lucky’s permission and I’ll call. You want pepperoni, peppers, onions and extra cheese, right?”
    “You got it.” He laughed. “I’ll be right back. Why don’t you give Robin a call and see if she wants to come over.”
    “She won’t.”
    “Give her a call anyway. Just to see.” He gave me a look. “If you like her, you’ll need to pursue her a bit harder.”
    “I’m trying, she’s just getting over what happened.”
    “Can you blame her? She let you into her life, into her bed and maybe into her heart and you held the biggest secrets you could from her.”
    “It wasn’t because I wasn’t falling for her.” I said defensively. “In fact, she’s the only girl I’ve felt that connected to.”
    “Does she know that?” He looked at me with a stern expression.
    “I don’t know.” I sighed. “She doesn’t care.”
    “Stop being so defeatist, Noah. I know you think you’re the savior of the world and the keeper of all of mankind ’s secrets, but you’re just a human like the rest of us. You do make mistakes, and while I know your heart does what you think is best, sometimes you get it wrong.”
    “Okay, tell it like it is.” I made a face at Zane. “I know I fucked up. I just though t .”
    “Stop thinking already. I know