asked.
âMy crib.â
At least I understood what that meant. He said it flatly enough to suggest the answer to my next question, but I still had to ask it.
âAnd I take it you were home alone?â
âYeah. Roxanne wouldnât come to my hood, you know?â
No, I didnât know. âWhere do you live?â
âBrownsville, man. Tilden Houses projects.â
Well, that explained why Roxanne never visited him. Brownsville was probably the most crime-ridden neighborhood in the five boroughs.
âCan anybody give you an alibi?â
âYou think Iâd be sitting in here if somebody could?â
âI just thought that, I donât know, youâd have an entourage or something with you at the time.â
âYou mean like Vince and Turtle and Drama? Fuck, no. I ainât Hollywood, man. âSides, you gotta remember, when this shit happened my record had just dropped, and it wasnât on the way to goinâ platinum or nothing, neither. All Iâd done was opened a few shows for Roxanne and was, you know, wit her and such, but I wasnât getting any money out of it. Shit, I still havenât seen a fuckinâ nickel from Cap Pun, you know?â
I looked over at Nina, but because I was the one on the phone, she apparently hadnât heard Legally Deadâs claim of poverty. I wondered if her commitment to the cause included working for free.
âMarcus Jackson was representing you pro bono?â I asked.
âPro what?â
âFor free. You werenât paying him?â
âCanât give the man what I donât got.â
âSo why do you want to switch lawyers? Marcus is a very well-respected guy, and heâs not charging you.â
âThe thing is, Marcus be tellinâ me that I gots to plead guilty. Donât matter how many times I say Iâm innocent, he keeps sayinâ that Imma get convicted, and I gots to make a deal.â Legally Dead shook his head, lamenting the injustice of it all. âI know that some of this shit donât look good, but I didnât kill her. I swear I didnât.â
âI hear you,â I said, the lawyerâs noncommittal response. I wasnât saying that I agreed, just that I understood the words he was saying.
Legally Dead was apparently smart enough to recognize the distinction. He turned away from me, staring at the floor, shaking his head again.
So I decided to throw him a bone. âFor what itâs worth, L.D., I was home alone that night, too, and I donât think I could get anyone to alibi me either.â
Of course, I wasnât Roxanneâs boyfriend, nor had I written a song describing how Iâd murder her if she ever got out of line. But for the moment, those were pesky details, and I wanted to gain his trust, if for no other reason than to try to get the truth from him. Or whatever his version of the truth might be.
He resumed eye contact. It was enough encouragement that I continued.
âI have to confess, I really donât know much about the hip-hop worldââ
He interrupted me. âI do rap. Hip-hop and rap ainât the same thing, man. Thatâs lesson number one.â
âWhatâs the difference?â
L.D. chuckled. âYou ax a hundred people, you get a hundred answers. But foâ me, itâs simple. You can hear the difference. What I do is rap. Spoken poetry to music. Eminem, Fitty, Dre, Snoop, thatâs rap. Damn if I know whatâs hip-hop, but I know what I do ainât it.â
I smiled back at him. âFair enough,â I said. âWhere I was going with this, however, is that, from what I understand of it, mainly from Nina and what Iâve read in the press, the prosecutionâs theory goes something like this: you were her boyfriend, which put you at the top of the suspect list, right off the bat.â I realized the unfortunate word choice as soon as Iâd said it, but decided