staggered, bike forgotten where it fell â
the rush of hot desire,
felt once more
the old familiar swelling need.
That hair â¦
But as I moved my hand to bring relief
she saw me where I stood under the shadow
of the trees. âIs anybody there?â
I moved;
I could have been sleep-walking.
Stepped into the patch of moonlight.
Heard again:
âWhoâs there? Please come and talk to me.â
My voice was hoarse, I knew, rough with desire.
âCome down,â was all that I could manage.
âCanât do it. Iâm locked in at nights
while Mumâs at work. But Iâm bored silly.â
She was right. The house was firmly locked.
No window even that I could have broken.
Shuttered up, the whole place was.
Almost a prison.
But when I looked again
it drove me almost wild.
Sheâd started to braid up
that hair, those golden swinging sheets of hair.
âLeave it,â I croaked. âIâll climb the tree.â
And so began our nights.
I rode there, every night,
to climb the tree to talk to her.
Didnât really have a lot to say. Iâd watch
her hair, imagine how Iâd run it through my fingers,
feel it swing across my body, move delicately down
my flesh to tease and tantalise.
She knew just how
to madden me. One night
she wore a scarf;
that night I would have wound it
round her throat if I had got to her.
And then the hair could
have been mine.
But how to get to her?
She wouldnât say her name. âYou could call me
Rapunzel.â
That was all sheâd say.
Back then I didnât understand. But now
I do. Iâve read the story that they tell.
Idiotic notion,
that a prince could climb her hair.
And yet, I guess you could say that
my body rose under the influence
of all those golden braids.
It climbed, indeed, a different sort of stairway.
If not a tower, well at least it rose aloft!
Perhaps thatâs how the story started â¦
They tell me now there is a name for how I feel.
Itâs trichophilia, they say. As if I give a damn,
another bit of useless information.
Iâve always known that long hair turns me on.
Thatâs why
collecting is the best thing in my life.
I didnât mind the risk I took
in climbing from the tree into her window.
Sheâd asked me many times
to see if I could do it. What she didnât know
was that it wasnât her,
just her hair
I wanted.
I had to keep her quiet
while I cut it off.
Who would have thought
that it would take so long?
So when at last
I turned her over, took the pillow off her face,
Iâd half expected that her eyes would open,
that sheâd look up at me.
But she was just like all the others.
Like them, she lay there, still.
They never look the same, without their hair.
Hansel and Gretel
In a time of terrible famine, a woodcutter and his wife decide they must abandon their children in a forest. The first time they try this disposal method, clever Hansel leaves a trail of white pebbles and he and Gretel find their way home. But the next time their parents attempt the cost-cutting exercise, Hansel canât find any pebbles and birds eat the trail of crumbs he tries to leave instead. Lost and starving, the hungry children find a house of gingerbread and sweets, and begin to eat it. The owner, a witch with a taste for young flesh, captures them, and makes Gretel a household slave while fattening Hansel in an iron cage for the cooking pot. But the intrepid children manage to trick the witch into herself falling into the oven so that they can escape. One hopes this time they were rewarded when they reached home yet again â¦
Pre-prandial musings
I always give them a good time.
That seems to me important.
I want it to be better
than the life they had with parents.
If things had not been bad at home
theyâd never have been here with me.
Used to wonder â¦
Now I understand so much
that never made real sense