that Nanny would seem to have created for herself, at least to pass muster in daylight hours, had abandoned her â or she it. She hurled her response at Florenceâs retreating back. That the words were slurred did not lessen their force.
âHot milk, my foot! That slopâs for the likes of the mistress. Itâs a wonder nobodyâs dosed her nightly cup with more than the bicarb she takes in it! Talk about enjoying ill health to the hilt! Youâd think her husband for one wouldâve had enough of it by now. The man might as well be wed to his grandma for all the good that limp lily will do him under the sheets! Or would it be more respectful to say Lillian, you posh-voiced stuck-up piece?â
Florence pivoted. âEither go downstairs without another word or Iâll rouse Mr Grumidge, who Iâm sure will be in agreement that you should be removed from this house within the hour.â She waited for the woman to go before continuing along the corridor and taking the short flight of steps to the night nursery. First things first. She needed urgently to make sure that Ned was all right; then she would decide whether or not to wait till morning to report the situation to the butler.
Even in the short, narrow bed, Ned looked pathetically small when Florence went in to him. The room was dimly lit, accentuating his pallor amidst the freckles. She loved those freckles, loved everything about him, even at his naughtiest times.
She sat down on the coverlet beside him, her heart aching, brimming with the need to reassure him of the wakeful worldâs safety.
âTell me, dear.â She gently cupped his hand in hers, as if cradling a wounded bird.
âIt was a bad, bad dream,â Ned whimpered, all his customary bravado gone. âIt was the one I often have â about Mummy and Daddy. They hated having to go and live in the cemetery. They kept trying to tell people before they got buried that they were scared of going down into the dark and the cold. They didnât want to leave me or Mullings.â
âNo, of course they didnât; but when they got to heaven theyâll have stopped being sad; knowing theyâd always be with you â in a different, but very special way.â
âI want to believe that ⦠I do most of the time.â Ned relaxed against her shoulder. âYou wonât ever leave me; will you, Florie? Not ever in a hundred years, even when Iâm older than Grandpa? Promise me youâll stay!â The green, amber-flecked eyes held hers in desperate appeal. âPromise, honour of a Stodmarsh. Youâre the nearest possible to one, arenât you?â
âWell, itâs very kind of you to think so. Your family has been a big part of my life for a long time now.â How should she continue? Florence had always thought it terribly wrong to lie to a child. She knew as well as anyone that in life there is no certainty; something can always happen beyond our control or deepest wishes that alters everything. Tomorrow, next week, next year, any time during his growing-up years, the ground could shift beneath her feet and his. But she couldnât bring herself to look into those stricken eyes and slide behind the use of unsatisfying soothing noises â saying she would do her level best; that he mustnât worry about it. She drew him to her and stroked the spiky ginger hair back from his damp brow.
âI promise, Ned.â He had insisted sternly on her third day as housekeeper that she not address him as Master Ned. âBut whatâs most important is that youâll grow up here with your grandparents; they love you enormously. And theyâre such wonderful people.â
âNot more special than you.â The mulish note, which had undoubtedly irritated, if not infuriated, Nanny, entered his voice. âGrandfather is marvellous, of course, and I do love Grandmother, but being unwell all the time she