hands under her, which was ironic since being touched out of the water usually made her lose any sense of being comfortable in her own skin.
When she felt Judeâs hands on her back under the water, she knew she wouldnât drown. The second he took them away she sank like a rock, then panicked and came up sputtering and thrashing until her feet were on the pool bottom.
If she couldnât float, she couldnât swim. If she couldnât swim, she couldnât dive through the portal in Lake Tahoe.
Everything you need to know is where all the information is.
That was what Waverly told her, just before he was murdered. They were supposed to be part of a rebellion. The rebellion
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Waverlyâs information about Jon Stead and the suppressant and God only knew what else heâd put in that book.
Heâd left a quote that made her certain that the place where heâd hidden the book was somewhere that had to do with Thomas Jefferson. Sheâd been sure it was in the local library, named after the dead president, but it wasnât. Not in the Academy library either. The Thomas Jefferson wing of the Library of Congress was her next best guess. Waverly had gone to Washington, D.C., to accept his Nobel Prize fifteen years ago; he could have left it then.
If they could get to the notes he kept hidden in the future, though, they might know for sure where he hid the book. The more she thought about how badly she needed to be able to make that dive, the worse her inability to swim got.
âThis isnât working,â Clover said after an hour of near drowning. âI canât swim. Iâll never be able to.â
âYou have to relax.â He was not happy, and Clover knew that if sheâd noticed his bad mood, it was very bad. The harder she tried, the harder she failed. She stood in waist-deep water looking at him, shivering more out of frustration than cold.
âThis wonât ever work,â Jude said, his voice softer, âunless you relax.â
âThe water gets in my nose.â Chlorinated water filled her sinuses, burning like acid, and then came pouring back out every time she came up gasping for air.
âI know.â
His patience made her want to scream. âI canât breathe under there.â
âYou arenât supposed to!â They looked at each other for a minute. âWeâll keep working on it. Weâll find a way.â
âThere isnât time to keep working on it. We need those notes.â
They didnât even know where the notes were, exactly. And they couldnât just ask the man. An hour after he told them about âthe place where all the information is,â Clover and Jude had seen Langston Bennett, the head of the Companyâs Time Mariner division, murder Ned Waverly.
Clover didnât even want to think about it. It haunted her to know that Waverly had hidden vital information in the future that only she could retrieve. Only autistic people could travel through the portal. Of all the FreaksâClover, her brother West, Jude, and the othersâonly Clover could make the dive.
Cloverâs inability to learn how to swim was ruining everything.
âYou canât dive yet anyway,â Jude said. âThe lake is too cold until next summer.â
Clover brushed her wet hair off her forehead and worked her way toward the pool stairs. Everything about swimming felt wrong. The way the water made her limbs float so that they moved when she didnât mean them to, and then didnât move right when she was willing them to propel her forward. The way she couldnât take a breath when her brain told her she should. The way she tried to breathe anyway, and water flooded down her throat and into her nose. âI canât believe how much this sucks.â
âWeâll keep working on it.â
âStop saying that. We both know it wonât do any good.â
Jude shook his head and looked at